Saturday, September 11, 2010

my saturday....

Today has been a pretty good day! I kept my self super busy! I did you can say spring cleaning at the end of summer. i washed bathrooms from top to bottom, floors every single inch of flooring from carpet ta wood, walls , mirrorsm windows, and every day laundry, ed washed or bathed lil mz betty(our pug), and then I wrote my mom 2 letters!
My house smells like pine sol and febreeze tropical whatever lol!
        Anywho its been a good day all around. Of course I did other things but that was the major stuff.
And I kept myself superb busy.But I dunno it is sumtin else. Not only just busy but it was pretty much a good day and I enjoyed it!

                          And now its time for bed and all I wanna do it curl up next ta him cuddle whatever and them just go to sleep a deeep sleep where I dont wake up  20 times in a night like I usually do every single durn night i just wanna sleep til at least 6am.... please god let me sleep til at least 6 hell even 5 am PAAAAAALEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZEEE!!! LET ME SLEEP TIL AT LEAST THEN!!!  im so sick of wakin up 5 or 6 times a night starting at 1am
Will letcha know if it happens hope everyone has a good weekend!!!!

well then...

I guess I talk about the same chit just about everytime I get on here =/
Same depressing chit. Didn't realize until I sat here and re read them all.
Im gonna have to change chit up and write about more stuff that aint so damn depressing
all the time!

Friday, September 10, 2010

blah...

Just sitting here waiting for toopid Fed Ex ta get here. Seems to be that they are taking their sweet time!
Every other time they would of done been here crack of friggen dawn. NOT today lol.
The boys are in school. And Ed is at work. And I shall sit here. Yay =/
I sit here and say that I needa get a job or volunteer sumwhere, to get me out of the house. But then do I do it? Nope! So no ones fault but my own! I just dont have that emph to get up and go look. Or do anything for that matter than keeping the house clean and cook for the family. But thats about it.
Day ta day crap I keep up with. But to do anything for me I dont. Does that make sense? I dunno
Most days i do my thing, and then I just wanna sleep the day away to make it go faster.
Like right now waiting for fedx ta get here. Why? So I can go crawl into bed.
Im finally where I wanna b in my life, to my family and what not. But theres sumtin inside, that is wrong I guess.
I cant explain it. I just wish I could fix it already, wish i knew how to fix it for that matter.
I just hate hate feeling this way! Theres no reason for it. Theres no stressers in my life. I dont know
I know one thing it sucks!! I wish I wasnt feeling like this everyday.
dunno gonna go find sumtin to do!